So it's edging up on 10:00 here at the house, and thoughts are inexorably turning breakfast-ward, because food is essential to sustaining life.
A moment ago I peered in the fridge, thinking about breakfast options, and discovered/remembered that I have a good 3/4 of a custard pie sitting there. Now opinions may differ among the readership, and I expect a certain amount of expostulation, but I kind of, in my heart of hearts, think custard pie is the perfect breakfast food.
This is not a post about my unhealthy eating habits.
Rather, close on the heels of my discovery of the pie came a certain amount of day-counting. How long, I wanted to know, had the pie been in my fridge? Not that long is the answer -- not that short would be another answer. Breakfast hangs in the balance.
This is not actually a post about how long food stays good, and whether it's better to play chicken with the contents of your fridge.
Instead it reminded me how much I hate having old food sitting in my fridge. I hate the thought of things wasting away, slowly going bad. It grosses me out. This affects my behavior on a daily basis. When I'm at the grocery store, I don't buy things that might, at least momentarily, appeal to me because I can see myself not getting around to eating them, or not eating it all. Those little packets of fresh herbs are a pretty good example. They're appealing; I'll use them at least once or twice, but then there you are with almost a full thing of mushy chives, and that makes me feel ill at ease with the world. Also, I generally refuse the doggy bag. Which makes no sense, because that food is going to be wasted anyway -- it's not like if I leave it at the restaurant it will magically be transformed into a source of light and nourishment.
I guess, at the end of the day, I'm not so comfortable with the whole death-and-decay thing or the imperfections of the world as I make out. Somewhere in the back of my head, I have an image of a shopping trip where every single thing bought is consumed in its entirety, where no bad purchases ever occur and no needs go unmet.